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I feel lost and aimless like this. It's like there's nothing left. No possibilities. No more living. There's no one here. Just me, rotting slowly by myself, always standing out like a sore thumb no matter where I go. Always rogue and forgotten. Never to be found by anyone again.

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Those people ended up out of my life. After school there was no more socializing. Only loneliness. Only frustration. My only friends are online. I love them to death. But I can't see them regularly. I still haven't even been able to meet them, ha ha. I feel like shit knowing I can never be fixed. That I'll never have a pack again. As bad as it could be. I just want to see and love people again. I feel like such an idiot. I hate myself. I hate this world. I just want to be held and to be loved. I want to be me around others again. FUCK.

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vent, I'm sad etc etc 

I can't recall the last time I woke up actually excited, energized or at least barely inspired in the morning... I want that back. I want to go outside and feel the cold breeze on my cheeks, and smell the rich, humid air.
I want to look at the sunrise with awe and wonder as I walk to perform my daily tasks among other people I can look in the eyes and talk to knowing they accept me.

I miss being with other people.
Feeling seen and seeing others.
Being me around people who understand.
I miss having a place to return to. People to return to.
I miss not being alone.

half the time I don't know what I'm doing, the other half I don't know what to do

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Well today became far more somber than I was expecting.

expanding brain meme, tech stuff 

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I guess I could just look for a bite in my kitchen

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self-deprecation 

I deserve to starve

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Tonight I was dreaming I could float and now it is daytime and I can't bring myself to go get my food in person

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Everybody talking about how to make smartphones last longer, meanwhile Microsoft and printer manufacturers try trolling people into tossing perfectly good printers because they can't be arsed to renew a shitty code-signing certificate for a generic-ass PCL5 printer driver
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Tfw ur printer is so old that u need to look for the next oldest model that Windows 10 still supports and manually install that driver instead
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For now the best I can aim for is getting a second cat
All furballs are welcome in this house

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honestly funny that some people think theory is really obtuse and long always, when theory has always had pamphlets and things like this which are short and meant for wide reading

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waking up to see people on twitter saying that bisexuality is exclusionary to trans people

When today's over I really need to give my cat kissies

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is not alive

timeline's always dead 'round these parts