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I feel lost and aimless like this. It's like there's nothing left. No possibilities. No more living. There's no one here. Just me, rotting slowly by myself, always standing out like a sore thumb no matter where I go. Always rogue and forgotten. Never to be found by anyone again.
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Those people ended up out of my life. After school there was no more socializing. Only loneliness. Only frustration. My only friends are online. I love them to death. But I can't see them regularly. I still haven't even been able to meet them, ha ha. I feel like shit knowing I can never be fixed. That I'll never have a pack again. As bad as it could be. I just want to see and love people again. I feel like such an idiot. I hate myself. I hate this world. I just want to be held and to be loved. I want to be me around others again. FUCK.
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I can't recall the last time I woke up actually excited, energized or at least barely inspired in the morning... I want that back. I want to go outside and feel the cold breeze on my cheeks, and smell the rich, humid air.
I want to look at the sunrise with awe and wonder as I walk to perform my daily tasks among other people I can look in the eyes and talk to knowing they accept me.
I miss being with other people.
Feeling seen and seeing others.
Being me around people who understand.
I miss having a place to return to. People to return to.
I miss not being alone.
For now the best I can aim for is getting a second cat
All furballs are welcome in this house
honestly funny that some people think theory is really obtuse and long always, when theory has always had pamphlets and things like this which are short and meant for wide reading
Hi, I'm Mae, a bi trans girl that loves Hollow Knight, Disco Elysium and Outer Wilds; and this here's my very own Mastodon profile! I don't post much publicly but that doesn't mean I bite. You may talk to me for w/e you want, even if it's just for a chat. Among other things I like there's RWBY, Homestuck, watching speedruns on Twitch, and my gf! I might also post a drawing or two if I get super inspired, but don't count on it.